It was 90 degrees (at 10am) and I was halfway out of my neighborhood. My conscious kept saying "go back Shardae, you aint gonna make it Shardae..." but the whole time I'm thinking "you can't be late, you can not be late...don't be the late girl"
I was headed to a shoot for a promo video, and given my new inclined "early is on time, and on time is late" mentality, I could not fathom being that girl that shows up strolling in while everyone awaits her arrival to get started.
But as I made a U-turn, I realized that was exactly what I might be...I needed deodorant! I got back to the house, and literally had to search for it smh...it wasn't where I thought I left it. I found it though, and generously applied it before leaving the house again.
I shot the producer a text letting him know I was running late, and arrived 15 minutes behind schedule. But guess what...they hadn't started, as a matter of fact they were still awaiting the arrival of other crew members...all I could do was laugh. I laughed even harder when 80% of the shoot was outside in the 90 degree heat!
As crazy as it seems, God really showed me something in that moment. So often I've been in such a rush to get to certain places in my life that I've literally been willing to compromise not having everything I need when I actually get there. I can get so caught up on meeting MY deadline, that I neglect key elements essential to the actual assignment.
Could I have made it without deodorant? I'm sure I could have. But I am also very certain I would have been musty. Likewise, with every aspect of life I realize settling is possible but yields uncomfortable results. Could I make enough money at a job I'm not purposed for? I'm sure I could. But I am certain I wouldn't be happy. Could I marry a man that isn't as spiritually mature as I am? I'm sure I could. But I am certain I would never be truly fulfilled.
Listen to your spirit when it says you need to turn around. When God sends you back to the beginning, it's to solidify a foundation needed for where you're going. You need deodorant.
It's ok to start over. It's ok to go back and get exactly what you need to carry out the plan for your life. Not only is it ok, It is necessary. DO NOT be afraid to turn around, what you're rushing to is not impeded by waiting for you. Why not arrive prepared.
"There is no passion to be found playing small - in
settling for a life that is less than the one you are capable of living." - Nelson Mandela
