Trees Don't Mourn Leaves...

"You can't connect to everything you touch..."

That's what my spirit told me. Growing spiritually and walking in love and light will have you feeling like you have to take every single person where God is taking you. Wrong. 

God's been showing me that sometimes a blessing is like this big party that He's throwing and you don't always get a plus 1. Often times when you bring someone with you to a party, you inadvertently give that person your attention instead of the event at hand. God won't chance that. He loves you too much not to help you realize your purpose. God will call you apart to come alone, just so he has your undivided attention. 

And another thing...

The people along the way that you meet, that you help, that you pour into are all very important but that doesn't mean you spend your time continually connected to them. Your job is to show them God, and let God do the rest. You can't be God. I'm learning unless my spirit leads me to do something, I'm out of order. I (Shardae) can want to pray for someone, I (Shardae) can want to assist with something, but when God says no, I'm acting out of my flesh and connecting to something I'm no longer supposed to be touching. 

I was in prayer today and God revealed to me that not everyone allowed in my life will stay there. Often times after the season is over, those people will be released. He said to me, "Have you ever seen a tree mourn it's leaves?" ...and the answer is no. More leaves will come. I will connect with them, but like a tree, I am constantly rooted in God. And as they fall, I must remain rooted and in expectation of the new growth that is about to take place...

#KeepGoing #KeepGrowing

I don't want it to "Look Right,"...I want it to "Be Right"

My drafts section has about 7 entries...I've been blogging for the past 4 months and have not posted 1 thing I've written lol. I think those were cleansing months for me, a chance for God to put things in perspective.

One of the things he's shown me is that when he is doing something in your life, you're a vessel and he is the one that determines what is delivered. When you alter that process, it is as if you contaminate the blessing he's trying to give. I realize more and more that God does not need my help, he needs my trust.

Transparent moment: I had no clue what "Cool Saved Chicks" was about. I had no clue what I was supposed to really do or the shape and form it was supposed to take. I just knew that God said "Start."

That's how it can be tho...sometimes God will tell you to take a step without revealing the staircase. And that's alright. What's wrong is that many times when we don't see the staircase, instead of waiting for God to reveal, we create our own next step. Sometimes we look at others staircases and even begin to mimic their steps.

When God is doing something great, something new, something that "eyes have not seen, nor have ears heard"...it won't look like everyone else's picture. When you take the time to piece together what you think God's promised you, it may look right, but it won't be right. As a matter of fact, it won't even feel right.

Growing in God I've learned that it's like I'm a brush, and God is the hand. He uses me to collect paint (situations, circumstances that I've gone through), and then creates strokes with my life to paint a picture that He ultimately will get the glory out of. I've learned that it's ok to be the brush. It is an honor to allow him to use my life to draw others closer to him.

Whether it's a relationship, or a business, or a ministry, when you begin to to be the hand instead of finding solace in being the brush, you run the risk of altering the picture. Altering the picture and  redefining your own path means the possibility of missing out on your God given purpose.

In the past couple of months I've committed myself to listening to God and following him, instead of my own ideas about what he wants. The more I listen, the more he reveals :) I'm excited.